I have always had a feeling in my heart that I was put here for a reason: to help people.
The problem is that I have thus put so much pressure on myself to be a good person, spent so much time worrying about how others perceive me, that my attention has been unintentionally been focused so inwardly for all these years. The last thing I’ve wanted to be was selfish, yet I’ve been stuck in my own head all this time. With constant worrying about how much I weigh, what I look like, how often I’m working out, counting calories, macros, not being a fast enough runner, not being a good enough friend, not doing enough, I’ve crammed my mind with so much negativity that I’ve not had space for any good stuff!
Now that I’ve been open and shared my story, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted. I still need to focus some attention on myself, obviously. I do this through meditation, yoga and of course, journalling. But now I am letting go of the past, filling my mind and body with positivity every morning, and am finding it naturally radiates out to others throughout the day. I take even more notice of all the little things that make life beautiful, and appreciate everything I am blessed to have, see and do.
I’m still learning to love myself, but I can see that once you truly do, you gain the capacity to give and receive love fully and openly.
It’s not selfish to love yourself. You don’t have to feel guilty for being proud of your achievements.
Now I’m focusing on making so many positive changes in my life, to move forward to new things and focus my attention truly to bettering the lives of others. It’ll be a slow journey, but one I shall enjoy every step of immensely!
Sending you all lots of love and happiness,